Turning Point?

I have been walking around Washington DC contemplating with this question: "Why am I here when I am feeling like I do not have a purpose right now?”

Once again I realize that I am not putting in enough effort and this week I admit that I have been feeling down. I rented a car (and felt liberated for once)  this week to go to the doctor's office and he told me that I am not digging deep enough within my heart to fuel that inner fire. I had the opportunity to conduct an informal informational interview to a defense attorney/ former prosecutor. He currently employed by the Army as a defense attorney and he defended infamous clients in the military, such as Bradley Manning. It was a privilege to meet him, because he was the first lawyer in DC that DID NOT discouraged me to go to law school. 

Ironically, it’s funny how this world is becoming smaller and smaller each day, as I become transparent enough to seek advice from random strangers. I always believe that there are people that walk into your life to relay a message to you, especially when you are down in the dumps. John is originally from Woodside, NY; my parents lived in Woodside before moving to New Jersey. His family attends the same church, where they dedicated mass to my grandmother. And most importantly, he went to St Johns University School of Law and that is where I want to apply too. The best piece of advice he gave me was to "Do not settle in life. If you see yourself as a Congresswoman down the road, the experience you obtain as a lawyer will help you think critically and you will expand your problem solving skills. For the hour that I spoke to you, I can easily tell you will be a great defense attorney and Congresswoman. This is because you want to get into Constitutional Law and you want to help other people for the greater good." I believe that there is a reason why we had this conversation, because I met somebody else who honestly was open about his beliefs in God. 

I made the decision that it is imperative to listen to my calling that subsequently the step in my journey is to go to law school. I have to stop doubting in my abilities by not listening to those, who discourages my ambitions. Yes, I am taking the personal statement assignment very seriously, because I started the application process for St John’s University. I am unsure about taking the LSATs again. Maybe? I have a few weeks to decide to take the LSATs in December or February. Hopefully, my new chapter in life in September 2014 will be attending law school part time and also working full time on top of that. I still prefer to work in campaigns and  to continue my pursuit to run for office in the future, but I do not know where is life going to take me. If I decide to continue to live in New York or move to Maryland, I can't run for city council in NY nor Congress until the next election cycle in 2018. In the meantime, there is no reason why I shouldn't go to law school. I am learning from my current and past experiences that I have to be able to be passionate about my career or else I will lose that inner fire to live life to the fullest. My goal in life is to serve others and make a difference in this bitter world as a Congresswoman and lawyer. 

My philosophy in life entails that every human being experiences a period of time, in which hurdles and burdens stray us away from making the right choices. As our negative experiences shape our outlook in life, some people turn to substance abuse, stealing, or committing crime. No matter what you've done in your past, everyone deserves a second chance in redeeming themselves in life. I do not want to settle and struggle to get up from bed every morning hating my job; I want to strive for greatness. I am not defining greatness as gaining prestige, fame, or becoming rich. I define greatness as fulfilling our purpose in life  to defend innocent people and to become the voice for the voiceless in our broken society. This is why I see myself as a lawyer and Congresswoman. In the end, maybe this conversation might have been my turning point during my time here in DC. As my time in DC is slowly ending as November approaches next week, I want to speak to more lawyers and admission officers from George Mason University, American University, and Catholic University.