As with any journey, we always have to know where to start. I am going to acknowledge my fears and anxiety before I start my journey in DC. I am really scared and nervous because I do not want to fail. I had a difficult time with my past internship over at the IZOD Center last fall.
As I am sitting down right now eating my big breakfast, I am watching another episode of Extreme Weightloss. I sent in my own audition video to Extreme Weightloss and I decided to lose weight on my own. This is where my journey begins one week from today. The next four months I will have to learn how to be independent and how to live on my own without the help of my parents and most importantly Phil. There is a saying that you have to learn how to love yourself before you can love others with your whole heart. I know that I can do it because I lost weight on my own exactly 4 years ago about 35 pounds. Now is the time to completely recapture my life during this transformation. I am disgusted at myself that I weigh 245lbs. Yes, I admitted it and it will not be easy for me. I went through an ankle and knee surgery last May and this past January. I didn't give up and lost hope. And I just kept on creating pathetic excuses that enabled me to continue to use food as a gateway towards my happiness. Yet, I struggle with looking at my own reflection in the mirror of what I had become.
Cheers to my new journey in DC, I hope to meet a lot of people and to gain valuable work experience.
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